As suspected, I was not paid for a sick day. I called my former supervisor and asked her if I would get paid for it if I got a doctor's note or if she would find another excuse to not pay me. She said I would get paid, asked if there were any other issues. I said yes, I had a huge problem with how the organization has been treating me. Like usual, she brushed it off, said I could talk to the ED if I have concerns.

I also found out that a family member is acting in a way that is disadvantageous to my mother and us financially, a move that is legal, but in my opinion, not ethical.

I'm laying awake a lot at night these days. Feeling very tired of being run over by people who don't seem to give a damn about me after I've given them my best. Sometimes I wish I was a lot less of a nice girl, someone who just says what she thinks and doesn't worry how people feel about it. Wondered if I should write a letter to my former workplace, let them know how screwed up they are. Yet I am quite sure they would not listen. Is it worth it just to let my voice out? Or is it better to just find a way to peace and let them be?

I guess all in all I'm wondering if I should be more forthright. It seems like I spend a lot of time bottling my thoughts, feeling and ideas, waiting for the right time to let them out - the right time being when I have a snese that I will be heard. But that sense rarely comes. And thus I am frustrated. I am tired of feeling that my voice is considered worthless.