No work
As of the 15th I have no more contract work, no job and no EI to fall back on. Every opportunity that seemed sure and hopeful fell through. I've been looking for jobs and the ones I'm qualified for I don't want b/c they are clinical work. Nonetheless, I'm applying for these jobs because it's better than not paying our bills.
The questions going through my mind are:
What does God want for me?
Does he have any plans for me, or am I pretty much on my own?
If he has a plan, could it include doing work that I don't seem suited for, even now that I seemed to be on a path which was a much better fit?
The questions going through my mind are:
What does God want for me?
Does he have any plans for me, or am I pretty much on my own?
If he has a plan, could it include doing work that I don't seem suited for, even now that I seemed to be on a path which was a much better fit?
posted by Jude | 3:17 PM
10 Comments:
Isaiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
interesting that after such a long journey and many blessings...you still ask that question....
How do you know the difference between blessings and good luck, happy circumstances, my own initiative?
I don't see how I can NOT ask that question when I don't have proof that it is God who imparted good things to me.
The rain falls on the just and the unjust.
Alrighty then, let me take a stab at it...
What does God want for you?
I would say: Maturity. I don't have a ton of scripture at my fingertips to back that up at the moment, but it makes sense and seems to be a pattern in nature. We, along with the rest of creation, were designed to grow and mature. As to His methods of getting us there - well, if nothing else, I know that He knows more than I do, has the perspective of eternity, and Scripture tells me that "good" is the ultimate purpose.
Does He have plans for you?
The alternative would be the "clockmaker" scenario. That is, that He made the world (clock), set it running, and then stepped back to watch.
That doesn't seem to jive with what we observe about human history - especially where Jesus is concerned, and it gives us no explanation as to the origin of scripture - and without THAT bit of communication we have no philosophic basis for existence....
Anywho... see above scripture.
If he has a plan could it include...?
Of course it could! I seemed suited to having a huge family and instead was treated to infertility! What important things in my character would not have been developed except by walking that path? What eternally significant things are being built in me by raising a brain-damaged child?
These things are not the path I've chosen - they've been thrust upon me. I can take them as cursing, or I can work through them with as much faithfulness as I have.
I hear your frustration, and maybe even some fear. God doesn't always reveal His plans - doesn't mean He doesn't have any. Do you explain to your kids things that are WAAAY above their ability to comprehend? Or do you expect them to trust that you have their best interests at heart because they know you love them. Isn't that what "attachment" is about? If you're doubting the "love", maybe you need to spend more time attaching....(okay, that was just off the top of my head, but...)
Well, Cindy, there's a part of me that feels like swearing at you and a part that thinks I should thank you. I guess I'll pick door #2.
I thought I might bring out the cursing in you... good thing you love me...;-) (and vice versa...)
Here is all wisdom wrapped up in a pretty package....
Ready?
What does God want for you?
I don't know.
There. Was that helpful?
I may not know what God wants, or what His plans for you are but this much is true.
God is good.
Judi,
What master's program are you applying for??
hey sorry about the work stuff...
God's plans...okay, please don't swear at me...
"I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Who ever said life was easy. It is not expected to be easy. It is tough, rough and hard sometimes. Sometimes I feel like yelling, swearing and tearing out my hair (okay, I love my hair and it is falling out just fine on it's own).
What is he God doing in your life? I don't know. What I do know is that when stuff like this happen...and it has happened a lot in my life, I have learned to press in. Press in to the word, press in to seeking God. Do I feel like it all the time...heck no. I want to run away, go back to my old comforts of the old Kenny. But I want more, even when it hurts and doesn't make any sense what so ever.
In all of this...I just want to say, that I know the questions you ask. I do not want to give you a pat comment like "I'm praying for you"...what I want to say is...If there is anything I can do for you...let me know. Practical things...even if it is bringing over some veggies or dinner. I have some good beef from a farmer in the country...all grain fed. Want some! I like to share.
Some work may be in the works, as it were. I won't find out until Monday. Until then, I will try to be patient and accepting of what God has for me - or doesn't.
The verse more than one person directed my way has been quite significant to Rob and I. Coincidence? I don't know. There's a chance it's not.
Joy: I'm applying to Community Healthy Sciences.
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