Job thoughts

Today I spoke with one of the woman who interviewed me last week for the position I'm not sure I want, but financially need. She wanted one more reference, answered a few questions I had, and I got the distinct impression that if the one more reference is a positive one they will offer me the position. I am contemplating God's plan in all of this, wondering what it is that I'm supposed to get out of this experience, when the thought pops into my head - Hey, Jude, it's not all about you! Maybe this place needs someone like you right now! Did you ever think of that?

And I hadn't really. I've had many jobs where I feel like I'm constantly battling against my weaknesses and my strengths are underutilized. My favourite (not) was the boss that told me that mine was not a position for influence or ideas. I said it sounded like she was telling me to just shut up and do my job, and she affirmed that. So the idea that I might have/be what this place needs and THAT'S why I'm there is kind of a revelation, silly as it may sound.

But we'll see. I could have misread the subtleties of the situation. And maybe there is something else for me, and me for it.