I had a job interview Friday. A big part of me doesn't want it because it's not the type of work I'm really hankering to do plus I just so love being my own boss. However right now my boss pays me diddly squat. Plus I do think the work could be somewhat interesting, appropriately challenging and thus a chance to prove myself at a new level.

I felt very negative in church this morning. I'm going because my kids want to be there. Last night I talked to a friend who is not going to a church because of her child. I think it just sucks that neither of us can seem to find a way that a whole family can feel that their needs are being met. Yes, I know church is not just about getting my needs met, and ask not what your church will do for you, yadda, yadda. I do wonder if those kinds of statements come from a defensive posture of churches that haven't a clue how to meet the needs of their congregations. "It's not our fault, it's theirs, they take and take and never give!" Well, baby, I've given in a thousand ways and never seem to find a place that I truly belong.