tears of mystery

I talked briefly with a friend this morning about my discomfort in being places (such as church) where I feel like crying a lot. She suggested I just needed to cry. She's probably right, but it doesn't make me feel more comfortable.

Some tears I can figure out. When I'm thinking about Dad, my tears make sense. God's timing aside, from my perspective he was taken far too soon.

Other tears, like I wrote in a previous blog, just don't make sense to me and so I think they shouldn't be there. But I guess matters of the heart don't always get in line with matters of the mind, and I have to live with both. My choices are hold it in or let it out.

Why does crying feel awkward? I sometimes feel I owe an explanation to whomever happens to ask what the tears are about. Perhaps I can just cry and not feel like I have to explain it. I don't want to make people uncomfortable, and some people are very uncomfortable with crying. But I suppose that's their problem.

Any thoughts on your own emotions, and crying a lot, and becoming comfortable walking through that?